What is a Rainbow Baby?

In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as "Rainbow Babies." The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

8w5d And the Paranoia sets in...

Well here I am at 8 weeks 5 days and the worry has officially set in. I saw my little one less than a week ago and already I'm DYING to him/her again! I even broke out the doppler a few minutes ago but I couldn't hear ANYTHING. I think I used the wrong kind of lotion or something. I couldn't even hear my own heartbeat. lol. I know it's too early and I probably won't hear anything anyways, but I just NEED to hear that heartbeat today. I don't even know why it hit me all of a sudden. I have this fear of missed miscarriage and I just know it will happen to me. If it's horrible and not really common, it happens to me. I think I'd rather bleed and go through all that then think I'm carrying a perfect baby only to find, it's not. I know is a very pessimistic entry but this is how I'm feeling today. I just want this baby to be ok soooo badly! It would also be just my luck to have a D&C on Thanksgiving. Blah. Only two more weeks until I see my little one again!
Posted by Ashley at 8:59 AM

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