To my beautiful Children,
Today Little one, your daddy asked me for a divorce. Mommy is heartbroken right now. I can't even put into words the pain I feel. It's not just for myself but you and your older brother. I wanted you to know what a happy family felt like. Mason is so young he won't remember the good times and you aren't even born yet. I still can't believe he is walking away. At this time he is not walking away from you or your older brother, just me. Atleast he still wants to be a father. I tried. I have begged him to work with me and I am going to try ONE MORE TIME. I love your father, so much. I can't figure out where it went wrong. I have asked him and he said "We just don't click anymore". Well, if you ask me, that's not really a reason for divorce but I have no say in the matter.
I just want you, little one and your brother to know that I love you more than anything. I would give my life for both of you. You are the only two things keeping me going right now. You two are my life savers, my angels. I'm so sorry little one, that I couldn't make this world better for you. I'll try to be the best mommy that I can. I'll try to smile even when I don't want to and laugh even though deep inside I might be crying. Why? Because you and Mason should never be affected by this. You all have done NOTHING wrong. If there is one thing your daddy and I can still agree on, it's that we both still love you more than life itself. I will do my best to keep this from hurting you both.
I love you both so much! Please don't EVER forget this.
With love ALWAYS,
Mommy
What is a Rainbow Baby?
In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as "Rainbow Babies." The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
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