18w0d My descision to have a Natural VBAC...

Well for the past several weeks I have been toying around with the idea of a all natural Vaginal Birth after Cesarean. I think I'm going to attempt using Hypnosis as a way to cope with the labor pains or "waves" as the books call it. I'm excited but still a bit nervous about the whole thing. My plan is to labor at home as long as possible and then transfer to the hospital where I will begin "pushing". I don't want to use Staff led pushing, I would rather do it my way or "labor down". I never thought I would be writing this because I have always been PRO epidural but I feel it's time to take control of my life and my body and this is the first strep for me. In the long run, this is what's best for my baby as well.

I think we atleast have a first name picked our for newest little man. I believe his name will be Kaleb. We initially announced that his name would be Kaleb Sebastian but we got a back lash from that. Apparently no one likes the name Sebastian. Cody and I like it for but we are also considering other alternative. If we decide on a name before little man is born, it will not be announced until after delivery so then hopefully no one will comment on what a horrible name it may or may not be.

He has been moving quite a bit lately and I'm definitely starting to notice it more. I've been drinking Red Raspberry leaf tea for the past two days and when I drink it, he moves everywhere. This tea is supposed to tone my uterus and when it comes time for labor, they "waves" will be more effective. I'm still debating on using Evening Primrose oil but I don't have to worry about that for 6 weeks or so. I may hold off on that until 34 weeks. No need to accidentally rush him out of there. We want him to bake until atleast 37/38 weeks. THEN he gets an eviction notice. :-)

Mason is becoming more and more interested with "Baby Kawop" Hahaha! He asks daily where he is and everyday I have to explain that he is in my belly. He says he wants him to be here now. I wonder if that story will change after he gets here and is waking him up at night. haha. I think Mason is going to be a great big brother once we get past the initial jealousy issues that I'm sure we will have. I'm just so excited to have two baby boys. Two little men that I get to shape and mold into to GREAT men, husbands, and eventually fathers.

17w1d We have a name... for now!

I believe my sweet rainbow boy is going to be Mr. Kaleb Sebastian Westbrooks! Hooray!!! Most people in my family don't care to much for the middle name but I love it! It's means Vinerable, Honorable. That's my little man!

16w4d IT'S A BOY!!!

Yes we are having another little boy. I'm thrilled! I thought I wanted a little girl but now that I'm having a boy, I'm super excited! Now we just need a name. hahaha. That will be the hard part. As you can tell from the pictures (that I will upload as soon as get them out of mom's car. hahaha) our little Rainbow boy is very well endowed. hehe. Way to go son! :-P

15w1d Names...

Well this past week has been emotionally draining. Cody and I are still together but honestly I don't know for how long. I feel absolutely devistated and I'm having a really hard time connecting with my baby. The first trimester I was excited but so nervous for fear of losing another little one. The minute I feel like I can relax, Cody drops a bomb shell on me. I feel horrible. This baby deserves so muh more than the poor thing is going to get.

So in the midst of all this, I'm trying to come up with names. It's really hard to name a baby that you're struggling so hard to connect with. I have come up with several names that I like but I'm not sure any of them "fit". We had one name picked out but it is WAY to popular. It was actually #1 on the namelist for last year. I grew up as Ashley F. and I HATED it. I don't want my kids growing up with an initial at the end of their name. Anyways, the long process of naming begins.

My next appt is January 18th. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed we find out the sex!